Saturday, November 5, 2011

Still in it, but barely...

It's been nearly a week and I am no less riddled with emotions and the marital strife has not dissipated.  It's like 1 step forward, 2 steps back.  I am deeply appreciative of all of your support.  I hope that this FET cycle will not be in vain and that my dreams of another child will come true.  Of course, I hope that this current challenge in my marriage will be surmountable.

As far as the nuts and bolts of my cycle -- a week of Vivelle dots has had no noticeable impact on me thus far (the nurse said it makes many people nauseous).  But I haven't yet gotten to two patches, let alone 4.  Had blood drawn today for estradiol levels and it was at 85 and they want over 50.  The Lupron has been making me very bruised recently, despite the beginning of it being bruise-free.  Is it air?  Is it my technique?  My greatest epiphany though, today, was finding a way to get rid of the adhesive from the Vivelle dots in a VERY easy way (I have read so many posts from women having trouble with that darn adhesive).  I use Goo Gone for household adhesive removal all the time, so I squirted a little into the cap of the bottle.  Then I submerged a Q-tip in the Goo Gone.  Wiped it back and forth on the adhesive residue and voila!  Gone w/o a trace!

Next appointment on Friday -- u/s and another blood draw for estradiol.

Not out of the woods w/ H yet and while he does want another child, our issues are definitely affecting whether or not we go through with transfer on the 18th.  Between now and then, I will do everything I can to get us back on track...


  1. I know how you feel... we've certainly had moments like this and wondered whether our cycles can go ahead if we're not on track... but also feel that soldiering on will help get us back on track. Hope everything works out for you before your transfer. FXd for you US appt... thinking of you always xoxo

  2. I start the patches on Thursday so thanks for the advice. I already have goo gone so that will be perfect. I hope you can get things figured out with H. This IF stuff is definitely not easy so hang in there.

  3. The husband stuff can be so hard. I wonder if he's acting out from the IVF-related stress? Hoping that you can both stay positive about being able to work stuff out, enough to go through with the transfer, after all those drugs.
    (here from LFCA)

  4. I hope that H comes around and that you can meet half way ... or somewhere in the middle, at least. Saw your blog on LFCA ... welcome to this place, and this amazing, amazing community.

  5. thanks all -- soooo appreciate the comments/support. i am thrilled to have found this outlet... i never would've imagined such an amazing community.