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is the heart rate of the grain of rice in my belly!  And it is .86 cm!  Also, measuring 2 days ahead of schedule...

While I gripped DH's hand, the order of information revealing was as follows: gestational sac, yolk sac (and that there is one embie), and then I was thinking "and, and, and???" and finally the sonographer stopped to show the pulsing heartbeat.  And then we heard it -- there could not have been anything that could've sounded better to my ears than that.  After looking at everything else,  she said, "Let's look at the heartbeat again," which HAD to be for our benefit, not hers, which is really sweet.  Dr. G was really busy and behind schedule with surgeries so we didn't get to meet with him.  I did ask to speak to a nurse (Chris, who is "meh" IMHO) -- she talked a lot about weaning off the meds, which was weird to me because it's still so early.  I asked about transitioning to the ob/gyn and "graduating" from CCRM and she said around 8 weeks.  She also said I'd get another blood test in a week and another ultrasound in two.  Okay...
 
Today, Charlotte called me and said that since it was still early (but that my levels were good -- drat, I forgot to ask about the specific numbers!), that we would keep all the meds the same (so I gotta order some more) and that I wouldn't have another blood test for two weeks.  A bit different than what Chris laid out.  On the bright side, I was able to make an appointment with my ob/gyn before the 10th week (it was good that I did, even though it's still early because she is pretty booked up already) so after the 2 week u/s, I'll get another one the following week.  Woohoo!  My friends, a couple where the husband is an ER doc, would go to the hospital and wheel the u/s machine into a closet and do u/s whenever they wanted.  Convenient, eh?  I have no such connections.

BTW, no u/s photos because I figure, they all look the same and I could just as easily copy and paste someone else's and who'd know?  : )  Maybe later...

Nausea and boobage symptoms continue to come and go... am obsessing much less, which is good.  Trying to just stay positive unless there is a sign that I should be concerned about.  It's a good thing it's such a busy time of year, because that'll help keep me occupied and help the time pass.

May tell Mom over Xmas... should be exciting.  FIL (who I adore), though, will be weird because he basically told us to not do it (since DH is older, in his late 40s).  And he's really risk averse, practical and old school.  When DH lost his job (a while ago, we are fortunate that he has a great job now), in the context of our house (which we had just bought) he said, "What if one of you kicks the bucket?"  Ummm... we could all kick the bucket anyday, anytime, but I'm not going to not live my life... But whatevs... family can be so weird sometimes.

Anyhoo... thanks, all, for your amazing support.  I really appreciated the comments that "talked me down off the ledge" in my previous post.  : )