Tuesday, March 6, 2012


I think it's totally irresponsible for the NP I met with two weeks ago to have said, "You'll feel movement any day now." Especially since that window for feeling movement is so varied.  I have nightmares about having a dead baby inside me and sometimes when I wake up, I'm totally paranoid and wondering if my pregnancy was my imagination.  I know I'm being dramatic, but even though all is going smoothly so far, I'm still really scared deep down.

Other than that, I'm just trying to forge ahead.  Went to a colleague's baby shower the other day.  She was adorably preggo and cleaned up on gifts.  Even though this is #2 for me, with the time that has passed since DS (5+ years -- we have a lot of stuff, but will still need some essentials) and the baby possibly being a different sex, my coworker is already talking about a shower for me.  Really surreal, but twould be really fun.

Also trying to line-up a long-term substitute and and job-share partner for the coming school year.  Have 2 good candidates.  Hope to get things nailed down soon.  I'm a planner.  Haven't quite gotten to the childcare research part yet, want to give it a bit more time... to be even more real (like after my 20 week u/s).

Really excited to work on the nursery... maybe will do a bit of that over Spring Break... and then a lot over summer vacation.

The big date is March 19 in the late afternoon -- my dr better not reschedule on me!  Feeling a combo of excitement with a bit of fear thrown in there...

Positive thoughts, vibes, spirits, etc... How do you guys get yourself to think positively???  SO HARD!


  1. I think you should find out if your placenta is anterior or posterior. If it is anterior it is between you and the baby, so that could be why you aren't feeling movement. I'm sure everything is fine! You are getting on up there in the weeks- 20 weeks will be here before you know it!

    1. Good point, thank you for the info and reassurance!

  2. Not much longer now until you find out the sex. Oh and yes liek TurtleMama said, the position of the placenta can make a difference in if you feel the fetal movement easily or not.

  3. I agree... movements can be so variable, so being told you might feel them early only adds to the anxiety. Baby shower sounds like a lovely idea... lots of fun :) Love always xo

  4. Distractions. Distractions are great. And celebrating every new day.
    Almost halfway!